So, while trying to think of a topic to make a post about, I decided on something that has been on my mind a lot recently. Rejections. No one is a fan of them, I mean, it sucks for someone to be uninterested in the story you poured your heart and soul into. The first couple were like punches to the gut (especially since they were two of my dream agents), but I tried to shake it off. (And now I'm going to have that Taylor Swift song stuck in my head...)
I tried to convince myself that it was fine and it didn't hurt every time I got a subsequent rejection. As someone with depression and anxiety, even with my medications, I can still feel that monster of doubt creeping over my shoulder, ready to just attack me and tell me that I'm not good enough to be published and that I should just quick.
But, I just chop him in the neck and try to hold my head up (Which would be so much easier if he stopped putting his dead weight on it...). I adore my characters and their story. Without getting any feedback from agents (I know they are very busy people!) I don't know what it is that doesn't appeal to them, but I can't automatically assume that it's because I'm a bad writer. Any number of things could be holding me back.
I want to believe in my writing and myself. So what if my pile of rejections makes JK Rowling's look like a post-it note? One day I'll find someone to be a champion for my work.
I can go the distance!